Tonight i was struck so deeply by one sentence in a book i am reading.
“i hope you never love anything as much as i love you”
It made me think of what i want in life.
The list is as follows;

i want to love
i want to breathe without a heavy heart
i want to live in a place i love and be surrounded by people who understand me.
i want to learn multiple languages
i want to exist for a reason and have a purpose in life
i want to listen to music endlessly,
drink wine, smoke cigarettes.

I want to resurrect old art forms such as letter writing and poetry,
i want to forget about the internet and television,
i want to talk to people properly, face to face,
so i can analyse your expressions and hand movements.
i want to have massive book shelf filled with great books by great authors.
I want to tell stories to children and what there faces light up.

I want this world to have a purpose and a meaning for life,
people need to stop walking around like zombies and embrace everything that life throws at them.
I want my heart to grow stronger and my head to become clearer.
The biggest thing in life is i want to grow old with someone who loves me.
“i hope you never love anything as much as i love you”
I want that quote to be real and i want to start to believe that it is real and that i am worthy of it,
because right now, i don't feel worthy and i don't feel like i will have that,
i don't have a purpose right now and i wish i knew why i was here.